In many ways, I feel like I’m doing the one step forward, two steps thing. It’s not true, I am making progress forward but these stupid muscle spasms are driving me nuts.
I don’t think I’ve written about the muscle spasms. It seems that laying around in bed for a month is not so great for general muscle condition. So I’ve been having massive screaming spasms – particularly when getting up or laying down. A day like today, when I had two sets of therapy and a shower and up and down for meals – well then I spend all evening laying still and hoping the drugs work. It’s frustrating. I thought that moving around more would loosen up the muscles but it really isn’t helping.
Still, I walked 40 feet today without stopping and stood for 3 1/2 minutes. Given that last Friday I was standing for 30 seconds while working on a puzzle and the puzzle pieces kept disappearing from my vision, this is progress.
So, I try to keep a positive attitude and focus on the progress and not the vexation of not moving fast enough. I so want to go home. Home where I hear my daffodils are up.