From Ally Bean’s blog, I took this vocabulary test and scored 35,200. They’re doing research – possibly research on people inclined to take vocabulary tests 🙂 so if you’re inclined, it doesn’t take very long. I found myself curious about whether I would have been able to figure out some of the words I didn’t know in context.
Leo Babuta wrote the single most ridiculous post I have ever seen on dealing with pain. He actually compared a temporary case of poison oak with living with chronic pain. Not that everything he said was useless, it was more the context of “I feel miserable, what must it be like for someone who feels miserable all the time?” that threw me for a loop. Trust me Leo, you don’t survive with chronic pain for long if you don’t learn to let go and accept what is pretty quickly. I ran across this recently and it sums up how we cope pretty well:
on particularly rough days when i’m sure i can’t possibly endure, i like to remind myself that my track record for getting through bad days so far is 100% and that’s pretty good. ~vinnie genovesi
I probably complain too much – or at least it feels like I do – but I’m not sure I’ve ever written about what it’s like to be in constant pain. I know I get tired of seeing similar things posted by a friend on FB. I feel like the more you beat people over the head with the spoon analogy or demand they understand why you don’t get things done, the more you’re inclined to stay in an unhealthy place. On the other hand, if we never talk about it then people really don’t get the difference between temporary discomfort and chronic – even moderate chronic pain.
It’s a hard balance sometimes, but it’s like living with depression or diabetes or any chronic condition of your choice. If it’s all you focus on, your life becomes limited to that one thing. And that’s what I’m struggling with regarding my writing lately. Yes, I’m working on these goals to try and change some aspects of my life but it feels like all I write or think about. It feels out of balance.
So, this week I’m going to try and put some thought into the words project; to really think about how I want to feel and what would help me get there. The other stuff – the ongoing goals, the struggle with eating and not eating will continue in the background. I just don’t intend to write about them as much.