Confession time. I’ve done a crap job at the challenges this week. Part of that was because I’ve been sick on and off all week. I’ve got a cold or allergies, a cough, and a stomach/intestinal thing that is just not going away. But be that as it may, the other part of the deal is I just haven’t felt like doing the damn challenges. My attitude sucks.
My main complaint is that none of this is anything new. Has anyone who has done any serious dieting not heard of any of these ideas? Why do you eat? What else could you do besides eat? Do something else!
The answers to why do I eat are not as easy as they seem like they should be. I have a lot of years of eating under stress, when depressed, when angry, when celebrating, when bored, and so on. I think a lot of that has translated to just pure habit. There are times, like overnight when not sleeping, that I can point at being frustrated and bored and tired and – and this seems most important to me – to having really poor impulse control. Sleep deprivation will do that to you.
So, I’ve said many times that if I could get the late night eating under control, I’d have a huge percentage of my overeating under control. The idea is to do something besides eat. The problem is actually doing it. I have tried this challenge before – nothing is new here. The only thing that has ever worked for me is just toughing my way through it. And I can do that for a while. Just like anyone can stick to an absurd diet for a while. Most of us – nearly all of us – don’t stay with the diet and I don’t stay with my grand plan to not eat in the middle of the night.
I’ve always viewed the problem as one of motivation. Also, I do think the need to love (for lack of a better word) my body more is probably a part of motivation. The fact is, I have a lot of reasons to be motivated and the ones about going out more or going dancing are way at the bottom of my list. But I ultimately don’t change my behavior. The program as it has been presented the past three weeks, I don’t think will help me change that. That could be all my issue, I’m trying to be fair. But I keep coming back to this is not new. This is nothing I haven’t heard before. This is nothing I haven’t tried before. I wish the very best to the people who are excited by trying out this program and I’m guessing it’s clicking with something in them that it just isn’t clicking in me.
We’ll see what the final week contains.