Yesterday was Dr. Great and Powerful day. I haven’t written much about my diabetes lately because, frankly, I’m doing a sucky job. I don’t want to even test my sugar since I know how awful I’m doing. It’s frustrating and I feel so incredibly stupid about it.

But, I must say I’m liking Dr. Great and Powerful more each time I see him. He understands the eating thing. I’m sure he must deal with a lot of people like me. He said that he knows people think that we should just stop eating but he knows it’s not that simple. He’s also supportive of me trying to change, by whatever means I think might help me. (I go to the informational meeting to start the bariatric surgery option in two weeks.) He also wants me to go back on Byetta. It may be helpful but damn it’s expensive and I don’t even want to try to explain insurance coverage.

I left feeling okay. And I bought chocolate sandwich cookies at the store. I bought carrots too! And lettuce. I needed the cookies. Sometimes I wish that booze or drugs would do for me what food does. They kill you more quietly. Sort of.

So I will give Byetta another try and I bought foods to try to get back on a more reasonable food plan, mostly. Except for this carrot cake (yes, yes, I bought carrots to put in a cake!) that I plan to make. You can’t be perfect all the time, right. I’m thinking about making cupcakes since they are more portion controlled. You can freeze them, too.